The Way Toward Health - January 5, 1984

January 5, 1984

People who have epilepsy are also afraid of their own energy.

They do not trust it, nor do they trust the spontaneous portions of the self.  They are afraid that left alone their energy might strike out against others, and so they short-circuit its use, having attacks that momentarily render themselves helpless.

People with so-called secondary personalities also fear their own energy.  They divide it up so that it seems to belong to different personalities, and is therefore effectively divided.  In basic terms, true amnesia does not exist in such cases, though it appears to.  The people involved are quite aware of their activities at all times, but they behave in a fashion that is not continual – that is, the main personality does not seem to behave in a continual manner, but is broken up, or again, seemingly divided.  This psychological ploy neatly prevents the so-called main personality from using all of its energy at any one time.

The individuals concerned pretend to themselves that they have no memory of the other personalities’ existences or activities.  These personalities, however, store up their energy so that one personality often exhibits explosive behavior, or makes certain decisions that seem to go against the wishes of the main entity.  In this way, different kinds of behavior may be exhibited, and while it would seem that many decisions are made by one portion of the self, without another portion of the self knowing anything about it, such usually is not the case.  In fact, the main personality is able to express many different kinds of probable action, but the entire personality is prevented from acting with its full energy or power.  Instead the energy is diverted into other channels.

All portions of the self are indeed conscious, and they are also basically conscious of each other, though for working purposes they may seem to be separate or isolated.