The Way Toward Health - April 30, 1984

April 30, 1984

Advice to Jane

Above all, Ruburt must not concentrate upon what is wrong.  In the deepest of terms, if you understand my meaning, nothing is wrong.  You have instead a conglomeration of severely conflicting beliefs, so that there is no clear single road to action.

You want to clear the road.  The free association is valuable because it helps to point out those conflicting feelings and beliefs, brings them into consciousness, and into the present moment, where they can indeed be understood in the light of knowledge that has been acquired since – but not been allowed to act upon the old conflicting beliefs.

The expression of emotions in itself is an expression of action, of motion.  To move requires first of all the expression of feeling, and the expression of any feeling makes room for still further motions.  Self-hypnosis can indeed be invaluable in terms of accelerating bodily motion and healing.  Expression, rather than repression, is vital.

Often Ruburt has not been in touch with his own feelings, but would try to intellectualize many away.  He needs to realize that it is safe to express himself – and that expression will not bring about abandonment.

(Rob: Jane had also said today that she’d felt that she had to be careful how she approached me so I wouldn’t get mad and leave her.  Those feelings gradually dissipated over the years, yet they must have had a part to play in the onset of symptoms.)

People who wrote books against the Catholic Church were excommunicated.  Ruburt transferred those fears to society at large.  There was a conflict between creative work and the church even when only poetry was involved.  He should indeed give himself suggestions that the necessary insights will come to him, and that the proper connections be made whether consciously or unconsciously.  But the idea is that it is safe to express himself, and that the true purpose of his life is indeed to express those characteristics that compose his personal reality.

He should also realize that pleasure is indeed a virtue.  By all means express your emotions to each other as they naturally occur.  Ruburt was not taught to love himself as a child, and thought of his talents as a way of justifying his existence – an existence of somewhat suspicious nature, he felt, since his mother told him often that he was responsible for her own poor health.

These issues do all fit together, but they can be unscrambled, brought into the present, and reconciled.  The body is more than agreeable, and more than able, to bring about an extraordinary recovery.

… In other words, Ruburt was given strong creative abilities that he was determined to express – but at the same time early in his life he was given the idea that it was highly dangerous to express the very uniqueness that was inherent in his creativity.  This is a part of the main issue.

He is to realize that if he has any duty or purpose in life, it is indeed to express those very abilities, since those abilities are so natural in his makeup, they also possess their own protective mechanisms.  He must realize that he is free to express his poetic, psychic nature, and to follow wherever it leads – since it is indeed his natural pathway into existence, and his most intimate connection with the universe, and with All That Is.

This session does tie issues together quite well – and can be used to advantage for free association also.