The “I” – Bigger Than The “Ego I”

Session 323

The “I” – Bigger Than The “Ego I”

Now, in the past when you said the word I, this I was the ego I, and you identified the whole self with the ego.  Later you learned to distinguish between the ego and the subconscious.  All of this simply means that you became aware of larger portions of the whole personality, and were consciously able to use these abilities, conscious and subconscious being, of course, artificial terms.

Now when you use the word I, more and more, this is the portion of the self of which I spoke in our last session.  You are aware of the ego and able to see yourself as something more than the ego is.  This is the I that you have been using in the pendulum sessions, that questions both the ego and subconscious.  These are all portions of the self, however; the difference is functional.

This self can give directions to both the ego and the subconscious to speed up healing processes.  Now you address this I automatically and identify it in with your own mind as a sort of supraconsciousness.  You are only familiar with a small part of it, however.  Here again, the division is arbitrary.

In those terms you could call it a part of a more expansive portion of the self, the only part that you are so far able to experience in your usual conscious terms.  Ruburt has been using this part of the self automatically in the pendulum sessions, and in giving suggestions.  You have appealed to it also.

Advice To Jane

Now, the crucial mother identification is passed, and Ruburt is left with a system of habit, still based on some but relatively little mother identification.  Ruburt did receive my message correctly.  While the overall stability of working hours and arrangements should be largely maintained, he should make an effort to vary his activities and routine.  This will generally help in the breaking up of habit patterns.

One or two excellent self-hypnosis sessions a week will speed up complete release of symptoms.  The more psychic energy he uses at such sessions, the speedier his progress.  We are not dealing with time, but intensities.  Intense concentration to other areas, you see, will take him out of the habitual patterns.

The intensity of interest in other directions is much more important than time.  We do not want intense concentration upon the symptoms.  In all hypnotic sessions and in all periods of self-suggestion, emphasis should indeed be upon health, exuberance, flexibility, strength and vitality.  I mentioned this to Ruburt today, but he thought the idea his own.

The change of environment, out of the apartment, was partially suggested to break any suggestions that might be arising simply from the length, in your terms, of his difficulties.  He should when possible, for now, wear yellows and greens to work.  He should make a definite determined effort to walk home, for his confidence will grow with the success, you see.

The housecleaning procedures I mentioned should definitely be carried out.  The work done in the kitchen last weekend helped him, for the reasons given.  Through motor activities he rids himself of identification in a vigorous and aggressive manner, the symbolism worked out in physical terms.  Since the symptoms have been physical, this is excellent therapy and most practical from a psychic viewpoint.

There are symbols I have not gone into, nor is there reason to.  But I have good reason giving these suggestions.  As an example only, I will give you two reasons for my suggestion that the windows be thrown open and the apartment aired.

When Ruburt’s mother went to the hospital in his high-school years, he had a symbolic way of ridding the house of her psychic presence, and to add to his own sense of inner freedom.  He threw open the windows, something usually denied him.  This also had a therapeutic symbolism for him in connection with his grandfather, that is the feeling that cleansing nature rids the air of impurities.  He also liked to have the radio blaring as a gesture of defiance and freedom, and within limitations, this would be an aid when the windows are opened.  There are other reasons for the housecleaning suggestions also, involving individualistic symbols that have strong value for him. 

This should not be allowed to become a compulsive thing, you see.  Certainly no week, for example, should be exclusively set aside.  There is a strong charge of energy behind these activities, however, which is therapeutically discharged.

Now, I have other suggestions.  Ruburt should specifically request dreams in which he is running, with speed and flexibility, dreams in which he dances well, and dreams in which he experiences a magnificent sense of vitality and physical exuberance.

He should imagine himself, before he sleeps, indulging joyfully in the next day’s activities, and should not concentrate on his symptoms, even if it is to wish they disappear.  These dreams should be rather specifically requested.

If possible he should make a strong effort to recall his previous sense of flexibility and not identify his personal image with the condition of his physical body during his difficulties.

…  There are no other pertinent suggestions here.  The ones I have given are quite sufficient, if they are followed.

…  It would perhaps help if at least one window is open during Ruburt’s exercise period.

Symptoms still lingering should not be ignored, of course, but attention should be paid to advancements, and symptoms should not be overemphasized.  Ruburt should attempt more and more to break out of these patterns he allowed to build up about him as a result of symptoms.  He should tackle the back stairs more frequently, until they lose what negative significance they gained, you see.

These procedures would have been of some help in the past, but now that the basic reason for the symptoms is conquered, the effectiveness of these methods should lead to the disappearance of all symptoms.  He must check himself, however.  He is in a habit, for example, now, of not bending down deeply and when he catches himself, he must move as he used to.

These suggestions will enable him to see himself you see, in the healed image.  Begin to pick up his Willie again, for example.  Do you see what I mean here?

(“Yes”.  Willie is our cat.)

Each success sets up a new constructive pattern.  Part of the late afternoon symptoms at work, lately, have been caused by a simple fear that difficulty would strike him on his way home.  To protect himself from this, he developed the symptoms before leaving, thus giving himself a legitimate excuse to ask for, or accept, a ride.

When he discovers he can walk home, this difficulty will vanish.  There may be, but should not be, some slight difficulty at first, the result of his own idea patterns, but that is all.  If he keeps track of himself, no difficulties at all will arise.

He should take frequent walks to build up his confidence, and to break up the patterns further.

Now that the basic reasons for the symptoms have been conquered, the symptoms would disappear in any case, but at a rather slow rate.  The suggestions given, applied with intensity, can work wonders in a very brief time.  Attention directed elsewhere is extremely important, for energy is withdrawn from the symptoms.  A complete change of environment would be excellent of course if it were practical.  Changes in the patterns and habits within the environment will do in place of the above, however.

When Ruburt replaces the bed sheets, I suggest colored ones.  As he goes to sleep this evening, have him try imagining a scene in springtime, with him walking briskly or running.  When he walks now on the streets, he should keep the mental image just given in his mind, picturing the whole flexible and fleet image, and the inner self will take steps to see that the suitable adjustments are made.  He should remember to give frequent suggestions pertaining to relaxation.  This is extremely important.

Once he has given suggestions, he should think of other things, and not check on his progress as this shows doubt.  He has, you see, a negative picture of himself walking that must be replaced by a positive one.

Gentle orders are fine.  Attempts to bully can bring aggravations.  Concentration on his writing in the morning helps rid him of symptoms, and so does concentration at nursery school, for his attention is otherwise centered.  We want to develop these same qualities at other times also.

His attention while walking has been centered upon his progress.  He should think of other things, even if he counts trees and looks about him.  Activity is good for him now, you see.  I emphasize the therapeutic dreams again.  Whenever possible, attention should be directed away from the symptoms.  This does not mean he should pretend they do not exist, but they will vanish to the extent that he directs energy away from them.

…  Now I will do this evening what I can do for Ruburt while he sleeps, by way of redirecting his inner energies while he dreams.  There should be an improvement in the morning, then.